Warning: You need strong feels.

Wow, This really helped me feel better about my self and about the challenge I face.

 

Wow.....That's....Wow.....

Oh the deepness....

 

This is my response in total to the video.

You call them feels because that is all they are to you, feelings, no not even that; a word, its just a word to you, no feelings but dead emptiness like constantly repeating your own name. There is nothing there but a hollow shell that whistles in the wind. You are a body, you move everyday, but you don't move forward. Your mind is twisted into a shape, a shape the people around you molded you to be. There is no you but predetermined algorithms that society has implanted inside of you. You call yourself a human but your no less than an automaton.

The feels, that's what you call them because that is all they are to you, but to me, nah. They are something more, they are the rusted shackles that have brought me down too long, too far. Their edges have been burned into my skin like a hot iron and yet I don't try to cover them up with the shackles themselves. There is no turning back, since our backs are in only darkness. I have no choice but to move on with my backpack and to find some where I finally want to stop, there is nothing else to do... No roads that have been paved, only one path. It is just a four foot ditch made up of footprints, none who made those prints are alive. The best you can hope for in this endless stretch ahead is someone to share your thoughts with, you could ask for nothing less or more, because even colors are just in your head.

This is my response to the video

 

Can someone explain what was wrong with the guy at 3:10 (why was he taking pills/in therapy) and what "but our lives will only ever always continue to be a balancing act that has less to do with pain and more to do with beauty" means.

 

"less to do with pain" : People aren't caring about their feelings and pain and ("More to do with beauty") are just focusing on others' beauty (appearance = good -> Popular). Thats what I feel he is saying. As for pills and therapy, he was probably in it because he was in a phase of depression and suicidal thoughts. He needed pills (which would be prescribed from a therapist) to help treat this.

 

But what was causing his depression?
Did his parents die? Was he abused by his foster parents or were they always drunk?

 

:/ "he was grafted on another tree" "left at the age of three" he was adopted he fell into depression and started therapy as well as drug therapy, the he was picked on called "popper" reference to the pills he was taking "1 part pills 99 part cruelty" no one could relate with his lack of parents and bullying as shown when it says he tried to kill himself after some one who had parents to go back to said 'get over it'.... how did you not get that from the video?

 

I already understood everything other than the reason why he became so depressed. So the line "he was three when he became a mixed drink of one part left alone and two parts tragedy" means he left his fosters at the age of 3? Did his foster parents abandon him?
And stop making fun of my knowledge D= ("how did you not get that from the video?").

Edit - still looking for different explanations on the final line of the poem "but our lives will only ever always continue to be a balancing act that has less to do with pain and more to do with beauty". A part of me thinks he is saying that their lives are now less painful and becoming more beautiful, as in a happy ending.

 

I was under the impression that you did not grasp the situation as a whole so I was asking how did you not get the situation through the video/audio. Twas my fault.

Yes, but certain themes and circumstances can be brought out from it.

Monk I will try to explain how I see this...

This references to something tragic (of course) happening to his adopted parents/parents, it doesn't really explain... but I (my opinion of course) take it as this is when his parents left and he was adopted. I am not sure on the last line as a lot is left up to the interpreter.

 

Saw this a while ago, it's both very beautiful and sad... as someone on reddit said, he sounds like Mackelmore

But this is really sad, and I'm glad I can't relate to it..

 

Too good and true to be put into words. This person just captured what many millions face into one video - that is one impressive feat.

People should really think about what they say and how they judge people - I feel as if in the current generation, there is almost a complete lack of humanity. There's only 'popularity' and 'I'm better than you' vibe going around... Nobody really cares what the other person feels or not, everyone just cares for themselves.

Everyone is guilty for this, its not just the bullies. Everyone, at least once in their lives have deliberately hurt others just to get some personal satisfaction. It's not even a question how many have, almost everyone has. It's natural human nature. But really, its up to us to see if we can suppress it.

Go on, share this on your facebook - people will go and say 'wow, this is real good' and 'so true!!11!!oneone' but if in reality most would not have any change in their lives with regard to other people.

I might appear cynical in this post - but that is how I feel about society nowadays.

 

I was having a hard time with this 3rd character in the video because to me it sounded like he was adopted at 3 and became depressed because he was adopted, which is confusing to me as to how only that can lead to such a massive depression. Not trying to sound cold hearted, I'll just never understand it since I was fortune enough to have my parents. My mom was adopted and loved her parents, but that was at birth. Age three might make a difference. That "two part tragedy" explains it probably, I'm just missing it.
The video shows his parents on clouds and talks about a drink, maybe they died in a tragedy involving alcohol.

 

From what I understood, his parents passed away when he was 3 and usually kids of recently deceased go through therapy to help them get through the phase (a lot of people become depressed when something like this happens, hence why he's taking anti-depressant pills)
As to the beauty, i'm not 100% sure but right now a lot of people are more concerned with looking good over inner beauty, and this is mostly happening with teenagers. Most of their school life is becoming them trying to be popular, look good and stuff rather than actually focusing on studying. Not entirely sure about that, though.

 

This... this is really sad. It bring tears to my eyes, just thinking about my past in elementary school, being bullied, and left behind by everyone. This is what I was always told, to leave it behind... but, I just can't. People think they understand, yet they don't. This touched me somewhere that I thought had been fixed, but it really wasn't. I don't know what to say anymore...

 

does it matter?

Sorry if that sounded blunt. It wasn't meant to be. I'm in pain as I watch this video. Thanks for sharing it with us. (That is said with flatline emotions but true sincerity) I can't see due to the tears in my eyes (and heart).

 

It does to fully understand whats going on. I mean, does anything matter? lol

 

I'm guessing you haven't experienced depression?
There are many triggers and for the purpose of what this video reveals, imho, I think the reason for someones depression doesn't matter. What matters is that they went through it and almost/didn't come out of it.